I write tis blog is bcos nid 2 thanks someone...who help me alot...i really appreciated her...she is my roomate...and now i m going to tell the reason y...
He and I ald break up about 2 weeks...in this two weeks....suprisingly...I DIDNT CRY!! not say i m not sad at all....i m sad...but dunno y...no tears cum out when i want 2 cry.....it is really weird....
i think i ald put him down....
my frends ask me delete his msn...contact number...fb...all those related to him all delete...bcos...when i do like tis...and tis is the onli way tat i cn rally put him down n wont sad anymore...but...i can't...when i click until "delete" tis word....my hand was shaking....i cannot do it....i really stupid...all my frend say tat tis guy is not a nice guy...ask me dun sad...dun waste my tears anymore,he wont hv any feeling when i cry like HELL !!! juz waste energy n tears....
i dunno y...i still keep contact wif him...i noe i m doing the wrong thing...i keep saying the stupid reason 2 myself....V STILL R FREND....but i noe acctually...our frendship is impossible bck 2 b4....all ald change....juz i dunwan accept it...
until 1 day...he sms me...dunno y...i feel tat hurt cum bck again...i long time didnt cry...i tot i ald put him down...but acctually not at all....i juz keep inside my heart...cnt find a correct way 2 release it...
is bcos of my roomate...she sign in my msn account...FB account...n using my phone...is she help me delete all his contact....when i saw she delete infront of my eye....my heart totally break....juz dunno wat 2 say...keep crying....i noe...tis time i m is SERIOUSLY...delete him frm my heart...I noe I WILL FORGET TIS PERSON VRY SOON....
when she bz deleting...he sms me again tis time...but tis time...reply his sms not me again...is my roomate help me reply him
her ....her....FIRST WORD...in sms STRAIGHT SCOLD HIM WAT THE FUCK!!!! walau....tis really shock me....n ask him dun cum n disturb my life anymore...acctually tis is wat i suppose 2 do....but until 2day...i cnt do it...bcos of my roomate....she help me did it.....tatz y....i really thanks her.....
thanks my dear....i still hv my family, my frends, i wont waste my time n energy to those thing tat are not worth....anymore.....i promise....
人是要长大的!!不是什么都只会哭。。哭过了就要反省!!而不是犯回同样错误!!
男朋友是我自己选的,就要有这个能力去承受一切痛苦!!我不能怨任何人!!更不能让关心我的人担心,就算我失去全世界,我还有疼我的家人!!就算全世界伤害我,我知道我家人绝对不会!!我不敢在他们面前说,是因为不想让他们担心我,就算在他们面前哭,他们只能担心却不能做些什么,既然这样倒不如不说更好!!至少让他们知道他们的女儿还好好生活着。。
p/s:CW...其实,我不是在每个人面前都可以哭得出来的,我只是在我信任的人面前哭而已,以前到现在都是,我朋友甚至说,我好像没有伤心过这样的!!不管发生什么事,我都很少掉眼泪的,哈哈哈。。昨晚我在你面前哭了,有吓到你吗??平时看我嘻嘻哈哈的,突然在你面前哭,应该吓坏了。。不过。。。我想告诉你!!你永远是我最爱的roomate!!哈哈哈。。。